I didn't post yesterday only because I was too busy to take the time. I'm in a much better frame of mind.
When fatigue hits, everything feels impossible--even the smallest thing. So looking at the big picture of weight loss is discouraging when I'm that low. My TOM is gone now, and so are the cravings, for the most part.
And one thing sparked my motivation. The 100 pushups challenge that Tri Mom found gave me a new goal to aim for. And it's a goal unlike any I've ever had. Sure, I've had weight loss goals, and a general goal of "getting fit." But never a specific goal like this.
I'd love to be able to do 100 pushups. I don't have much upper body strength. I haven't taken the initial test yet--I've been feeling too weak--but I can probably only do a few from-the-toe pushups. But I'll do that this weekend, then start the challenge Tuesday.
Anyway, having a new goal was all it took to get my motivation started up. Plus, I realize my diet was too strict for the long term. I didn't really mean it to be for the long term, I intended to start nuts and fruit sooner, but I was doing so well. Now I'm starting a more balanced approach to eating. Even if it slows my losses down, it should be something I can do for life.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I'm like a house of cards. Pull one out...
...and the whole thing crumbles.
I've had a rough week. And I didn't purposely stay away because of that, but when I'm not feeling well, my whole routine goes out the window. I lose myself in movies or computer games because I don't have the energy to do anything real.
My TOM is always hard on me. This time was really bad. Energy down to zero. Even gentle exercise was too much, so I took some time off that. And the cravings were so bad I decided to take the weekend off from my diet. So now I'm having a hard time getting back to the way I was eating.
Motivation isn't an easy thing to find when cravings have a strangle hold on my brain. I still think the weekend off was a good choice. I was perfectly content as long as I was satisfied with the food I was eating, but when cravings come on this strong, there's really no good choice. If I don't eat something "forbidden" I start feeling deprived, and after a while I snap and really go crazy. Even if they were just TOM cravings, it didn't help to tell myself they'd pass.
A planned break is hard to come back from, but it's the better option. I just wish everything didn't fall to pieces at once. I stopped taking my drops--forgetful and lazy, I guess. I wasn't doing my sauna because of my TOM--it can prolong things, and I don't need that.
On top of everything, I've developed a slight aversion to meat. And I need my protein, so I've got to get creative. The weekend packed some pounds on--water, I'm sure, because I'm sensitive to everything.
Bottom line, I'm having a tough time. Got any encouraging words for me?
I've had a rough week. And I didn't purposely stay away because of that, but when I'm not feeling well, my whole routine goes out the window. I lose myself in movies or computer games because I don't have the energy to do anything real.
My TOM is always hard on me. This time was really bad. Energy down to zero. Even gentle exercise was too much, so I took some time off that. And the cravings were so bad I decided to take the weekend off from my diet. So now I'm having a hard time getting back to the way I was eating.
Motivation isn't an easy thing to find when cravings have a strangle hold on my brain. I still think the weekend off was a good choice. I was perfectly content as long as I was satisfied with the food I was eating, but when cravings come on this strong, there's really no good choice. If I don't eat something "forbidden" I start feeling deprived, and after a while I snap and really go crazy. Even if they were just TOM cravings, it didn't help to tell myself they'd pass.
A planned break is hard to come back from, but it's the better option. I just wish everything didn't fall to pieces at once. I stopped taking my drops--forgetful and lazy, I guess. I wasn't doing my sauna because of my TOM--it can prolong things, and I don't need that.
On top of everything, I've developed a slight aversion to meat. And I need my protein, so I've got to get creative. The weekend packed some pounds on--water, I'm sure, because I'm sensitive to everything.
Bottom line, I'm having a tough time. Got any encouraging words for me?
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
It's the spice of life, right?
I'm starting to crave a little bit of variety in my diet.
Not my usual cravings for bread and sugar. I just want a little bit of fruit and some nuts and seeds. Cheese has started sounding really good, but I'm committed to staying off of dairy for a couple more months. I know dairy was causing me problems.
Funny, I had cravings for chocolate on Valentine's Day. Psychological? Or was it something they put in the steak that triggered some cravings? I hate eating unknowns when I'm trying to eat clean, but I really needed a night out. Anyway, the chocolate cravings went away.
I did test eggs yesterday, and I don't think I have a problem with them. When I thought I had a problem, it may have actually been something I was eating with the eggs. I also had some blueberries last night. They tasted so good after more than a month without fruit. The only reason I've avoided fruit was to keep my blood sugar stable, and to help with candida. Blueberries are supposed to by a low glycemic fruit.
I'm ready to start slowly adding a few things back in. I probably shouldn't have had fruit the same day I was testing eggs. From now on, just one thing at a time. Also, I'm going to weigh myself every day to see if any foods trigger a gain. I'm sick of being in the dark, anyway. I want to see what's going on with my weight from day to day. Yesterday's new taste adventures didn't hurt my weight at all this morning.
Not my usual cravings for bread and sugar. I just want a little bit of fruit and some nuts and seeds. Cheese has started sounding really good, but I'm committed to staying off of dairy for a couple more months. I know dairy was causing me problems.
Funny, I had cravings for chocolate on Valentine's Day. Psychological? Or was it something they put in the steak that triggered some cravings? I hate eating unknowns when I'm trying to eat clean, but I really needed a night out. Anyway, the chocolate cravings went away.
I did test eggs yesterday, and I don't think I have a problem with them. When I thought I had a problem, it may have actually been something I was eating with the eggs. I also had some blueberries last night. They tasted so good after more than a month without fruit. The only reason I've avoided fruit was to keep my blood sugar stable, and to help with candida. Blueberries are supposed to by a low glycemic fruit.
I'm ready to start slowly adding a few things back in. I probably shouldn't have had fruit the same day I was testing eggs. From now on, just one thing at a time. Also, I'm going to weigh myself every day to see if any foods trigger a gain. I'm sick of being in the dark, anyway. I want to see what's going on with my weight from day to day. Yesterday's new taste adventures didn't hurt my weight at all this morning.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
New Blog Title
HCG Experiment is now Finding the Thin Me.
(Three posts in one day. This is a record.)
(Three posts in one day. This is a record.)
Weigh in
I lost another 1.4 pounds this week! That brings me to 177.6. Still losing over a pound a week. This is great. Not as much for inch loss. That kind of goes in spurts for me. But I did lose 1/4 inch on each of 4 measurements. My streak of 1/2 inch loss per week on my waist is probably over. But 1/4 isn't bad.
My husband took me out for supper on Valentine's Day. I had steak and vegetables. The marinade for the steak was horribly salty, but I made sure to drink a lot of water yesterday. I don't seem to be any worse off for a night out.
I didn't blog yesterday because I got sick. I had the hardest time motivating myself to exercise. I don't know why. I kept procrastinating, and since I eat breakfast after I exercise, this pushed my breakfast back too late. I saw that if I took my first MMS dose after I ate, like usual, my whole schedule would be off, and I'd miss my last dose because I'd be in bed already.
So I did what you're not supposed to do--I took it on an empty stomach. And I paid for it. Nausea and diarrhea (sorry, TMI) for several hours. I was sick over lunchtime and didn't get hungry until supper. Lesson learned. Always eat before taking MMS. I hadn't gotten sick at all until yesterday.
My husband took me out for supper on Valentine's Day. I had steak and vegetables. The marinade for the steak was horribly salty, but I made sure to drink a lot of water yesterday. I don't seem to be any worse off for a night out.
I didn't blog yesterday because I got sick. I had the hardest time motivating myself to exercise. I don't know why. I kept procrastinating, and since I eat breakfast after I exercise, this pushed my breakfast back too late. I saw that if I took my first MMS dose after I ate, like usual, my whole schedule would be off, and I'd miss my last dose because I'd be in bed already.
So I did what you're not supposed to do--I took it on an empty stomach. And I paid for it. Nausea and diarrhea (sorry, TMI) for several hours. I was sick over lunchtime and didn't get hungry until supper. Lesson learned. Always eat before taking MMS. I hadn't gotten sick at all until yesterday.
Follow up
PACE is all laid out in a book. Dr. Sear's website gives teasers of what it's about. He has a newsletter, and has written other books, so the site isn't all about PACE, so it can be hard to find information, though some links are there. Here are a couple of articles. One on weight loss, and one comparing/contrasting it to marathons. I bought his first PACE book, which was an e-book for about $30. Now he has a new version available only in hardcover, and it sells for around $40, I think.
I could give you details, but I have too much respect for copyrights to lay it out publicly. I dabble in writing myself, and I'd hate for anyone to violate my copyright.
However, my email is in my profile. Email me if you're interested, and I could give you some basics on getting started. Just like I'd tell any friend by word of mouth what I've learned about PACE.
I could give you details, but I have too much respect for copyrights to lay it out publicly. I dabble in writing myself, and I'd hate for anyone to violate my copyright.
However, my email is in my profile. Email me if you're interested, and I could give you some basics on getting started. Just like I'd tell any friend by word of mouth what I've learned about PACE.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Exercise
I've probably shared a little about my exercise program in the past. I do P.A.C.E., which is a program Dr. Sears developed. It's a modified version of interval training. High intensity interval training is something only the very fit can do. With PACE, you can start in any condition. Even walking then resting is a good start.
I'm talking about this again because so many people say, I used to exercise for an hour or more and didn't lose a bit of fat. You know me (or you're getting to know me) I can't know a healthful tidbit and not share it.
Long duration exercise burns fat. Sounds good, right? Nope.
You don't want your body to burn fat during the exercise, only afterward. When you burn fat during the exercise, you're training your body that fat is a fuel you need. Your body responds by storing more fat to be available for your next workout. So, sure, that hour on the treadmill is burning fat, but you're working against yourself.
PACE works by keeping the total exertion under 20 minutes. After 20 minutes is when the body turns to fat for fuel because it's used up its quick reserves. So I might jog for 3 minutes, then rest, jog slightly faster for 2 minutes, then rest. The total time it takes me is 25-30 minutes. But my actual exertion is only 12 minutes.
It gets my heart pounding, it gets me panting, which leads to a stronger heart and lungs. And after I'm done, it burns fat all day long. It has to in order to replace the energy stores I used during exercise. The theory is that once your body realizes it doesn't need the fat for immediate fuel, it will stop storing it.
My proof so far? I lost 3 pounds in the last 2 weeks--100% fat. (Of course my food choices have quite a bit to do with that, too.)
I've known about PACE for over a year now. Trouble is, I've always had problems sticking to exercise long term. So I haven't seen the long-term results of this program for myself. This time will be different.
I'm talking about this again because so many people say, I used to exercise for an hour or more and didn't lose a bit of fat. You know me (or you're getting to know me) I can't know a healthful tidbit and not share it.
Long duration exercise burns fat. Sounds good, right? Nope.
You don't want your body to burn fat during the exercise, only afterward. When you burn fat during the exercise, you're training your body that fat is a fuel you need. Your body responds by storing more fat to be available for your next workout. So, sure, that hour on the treadmill is burning fat, but you're working against yourself.
PACE works by keeping the total exertion under 20 minutes. After 20 minutes is when the body turns to fat for fuel because it's used up its quick reserves. So I might jog for 3 minutes, then rest, jog slightly faster for 2 minutes, then rest. The total time it takes me is 25-30 minutes. But my actual exertion is only 12 minutes.
It gets my heart pounding, it gets me panting, which leads to a stronger heart and lungs. And after I'm done, it burns fat all day long. It has to in order to replace the energy stores I used during exercise. The theory is that once your body realizes it doesn't need the fat for immediate fuel, it will stop storing it.
My proof so far? I lost 3 pounds in the last 2 weeks--100% fat. (Of course my food choices have quite a bit to do with that, too.)
I've known about PACE for over a year now. Trouble is, I've always had problems sticking to exercise long term. So I haven't seen the long-term results of this program for myself. This time will be different.
Friday, February 12, 2010
My messed up allergic system
Here you go, Tri Mom.
I skipped that part of my story. Trying to boil down 8 months into a few posts didn't work out so well.
This spring when I found out I'm allergic to mold, I had something called a live blood test done. This looks at blood through a dark field microscope while the blood is still alive and active. It gives a better indication of what's actually happening in the blood.
I went with two friends, one of whom is also allergic to mold. We didn't know that there's different training for this test, and the man we went to didn't know anything about mold, and didn't know what to look for in the blood, so not much help in that area, but...
He was chatting away during the tests of my two friends. When he was looking at my blood, he got very, very quiet. I'm thinking, great, I've got cancer and he's not allowed to tell me. Seriously, they could come in and take everything away from him, and even send him to jail if he tried to diagnose a disease.
Finally, what he did tell me was that my liver was very clogged. He said that was undoubtedly causing absorption issues for me--not getting the proper nutrition out of my food or vitamins. And also that my lymph nodes were congested. He was very concerned about both these issues. He strongly suggested I do a liver flush, and take steps to get my lymph nodes flowing.
I looked up a liver flush. Doesn't sound fun at all. And they all recommended doing a kidney flush first. More all-kinds-of-not-fun. Then they said for a kidney flush to be affective, I should have my metal fillings removed first. I have 8. I can't afford to have 8 composite fillings done at once, plus your dentist has to know what he's doing so he doesn't make the mercury contamination worse by removing them.
Bottom line, I felt stuck, and scared. I have so many excuses for why I ate like crazy this summer and gained all this weight, but my fear contributed.
Then my nurse friend told me about the MMS drops which clear up mold, candida, allergies, heavy metals, and finally cleanses the lymph nodes and liver. Sounds too good to be true, I know. It's supposed to do everything I needed. My own research convinced me. Even though I've gotten sick on these drops--the die-off making me sick, not the drops--it's much gentler than those very violent sounding liver and kidney flushes.
Again, I'm not trying to sell anyone on these drops, but if you're desperate to get rid of candida or other issues, check them out here. Look under the basic MMS information on the left hand side of the page. And if you take things slowly enough, you don't have to get sick on the drops. I'm not getting sick this time around, and I'm up to 30 drops a day.
I skipped that part of my story. Trying to boil down 8 months into a few posts didn't work out so well.
This spring when I found out I'm allergic to mold, I had something called a live blood test done. This looks at blood through a dark field microscope while the blood is still alive and active. It gives a better indication of what's actually happening in the blood.
I went with two friends, one of whom is also allergic to mold. We didn't know that there's different training for this test, and the man we went to didn't know anything about mold, and didn't know what to look for in the blood, so not much help in that area, but...
He was chatting away during the tests of my two friends. When he was looking at my blood, he got very, very quiet. I'm thinking, great, I've got cancer and he's not allowed to tell me. Seriously, they could come in and take everything away from him, and even send him to jail if he tried to diagnose a disease.
Finally, what he did tell me was that my liver was very clogged. He said that was undoubtedly causing absorption issues for me--not getting the proper nutrition out of my food or vitamins. And also that my lymph nodes were congested. He was very concerned about both these issues. He strongly suggested I do a liver flush, and take steps to get my lymph nodes flowing.
I looked up a liver flush. Doesn't sound fun at all. And they all recommended doing a kidney flush first. More all-kinds-of-not-fun. Then they said for a kidney flush to be affective, I should have my metal fillings removed first. I have 8. I can't afford to have 8 composite fillings done at once, plus your dentist has to know what he's doing so he doesn't make the mercury contamination worse by removing them.
Bottom line, I felt stuck, and scared. I have so many excuses for why I ate like crazy this summer and gained all this weight, but my fear contributed.
Then my nurse friend told me about the MMS drops which clear up mold, candida, allergies, heavy metals, and finally cleanses the lymph nodes and liver. Sounds too good to be true, I know. It's supposed to do everything I needed. My own research convinced me. Even though I've gotten sick on these drops--the die-off making me sick, not the drops--it's much gentler than those very violent sounding liver and kidney flushes.
Again, I'm not trying to sell anyone on these drops, but if you're desperate to get rid of candida or other issues, check them out here. Look under the basic MMS information on the left hand side of the page. And if you take things slowly enough, you don't have to get sick on the drops. I'm not getting sick this time around, and I'm up to 30 drops a day.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
High goals
I set my weight loss goals high this time. My goal is losing 2 pounds a week. Realistically, I know I can't reach that every week. Anything over a pound a week is above my average weight loss, going on my own.
However, I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can every day to lose this weight. If my goal was 1 pound, I know I can reach that without extra effort. (Note the emphasis on extra--it takes effort for me to lose any weight.) So if I miss a day of exercise, big deal. I know I'll probably still lose my 1 pound for the week, or make up for it the next week and keep my average.
Two pounds a week is nearly impossible for me. So by aiming for it, I'm not missing a day of exercise. I'm sticking with my eating plan perfectly. I'm getting in that infrared sauna every day to sweat out the toxins to help my body release fat.
The cost is a little bit of disappointment when I get on the scale and the loss is smaller than 2 pounds. The benefit is determination to do everything in my power to improve that number the next week. And that far outweighs the cost.
Plus, I know better than to get tripped up by a number on the scale. I put more stock in what the tape measure tells me each week.
On another note... I think I'm going to rename this blog. It started because of HCG, but I'm not doing that right now, and I may never be able to do another round. My messed-up, allergic, clogged up liver and lymph node, system didn't allow HCG to work right for me. I have hopes to be healed enough by the last 20 pounds or so to be able to do one last round, but I'm not counting on it.
So anyway, I should call this blog something other than HCG Experiment, since that has no part in my life right now. Not even maintenance. But what to call it? Any ideas? I'm horrible at titles.
However, I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can every day to lose this weight. If my goal was 1 pound, I know I can reach that without extra effort. (Note the emphasis on extra--it takes effort for me to lose any weight.) So if I miss a day of exercise, big deal. I know I'll probably still lose my 1 pound for the week, or make up for it the next week and keep my average.
Two pounds a week is nearly impossible for me. So by aiming for it, I'm not missing a day of exercise. I'm sticking with my eating plan perfectly. I'm getting in that infrared sauna every day to sweat out the toxins to help my body release fat.
The cost is a little bit of disappointment when I get on the scale and the loss is smaller than 2 pounds. The benefit is determination to do everything in my power to improve that number the next week. And that far outweighs the cost.
Plus, I know better than to get tripped up by a number on the scale. I put more stock in what the tape measure tells me each week.
On another note... I think I'm going to rename this blog. It started because of HCG, but I'm not doing that right now, and I may never be able to do another round. My messed-up, allergic, clogged up liver and lymph node, system didn't allow HCG to work right for me. I have hopes to be healed enough by the last 20 pounds or so to be able to do one last round, but I'm not counting on it.
So anyway, I should call this blog something other than HCG Experiment, since that has no part in my life right now. Not even maintenance. But what to call it? Any ideas? I'm horrible at titles.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Weigh in
I see I've picked up more followers. On one hand, yeah! More accountability. Welcome, everyone. On the other hand, crap, now I have to try to be interesting.
I lost 1.6 pounds this week. That brings me to 179. I've got such a long way to go that I need to appreciate the steps along the way. So today I'm grateful to be out of the 180s! I've lost 9 pounds in 5 weeks without the aid of HCG!
And I lost 2 and 1/4 inches over 7 measurements. There wasn't one site that didn't lose at least 1/4 of an inch. And I lost another 1/2 on my waist, where I most need to lose.
Stats, don't you just love 'em? I do. Here's some more.
My BMI has gone from 29.4 to 28. Isn't 30 and over obese? How close I came! However, I just learned--or was reminded--that waist measurement determines obesity better than BMI. And according to my waist, I'm obese. That's why I want to lose inches in that area so badly. My waist is currently 39 inches. I started out at 41, so there's improvement, but here's the guidelines I found for waist circumference.
Women:
Ideal = 28-33
Overweight = 33-37
Obese = over 37
I don't think I have any male readers, but add 3 inches to everything and you've got the male guidelines.
Okay, that's enough numbers for today. I'm so grateful for the progress I've made so far. And my motivation is still high.
I lost 1.6 pounds this week. That brings me to 179. I've got such a long way to go that I need to appreciate the steps along the way. So today I'm grateful to be out of the 180s! I've lost 9 pounds in 5 weeks without the aid of HCG!
And I lost 2 and 1/4 inches over 7 measurements. There wasn't one site that didn't lose at least 1/4 of an inch. And I lost another 1/2 on my waist, where I most need to lose.
Stats, don't you just love 'em? I do. Here's some more.
My BMI has gone from 29.4 to 28. Isn't 30 and over obese? How close I came! However, I just learned--or was reminded--that waist measurement determines obesity better than BMI. And according to my waist, I'm obese. That's why I want to lose inches in that area so badly. My waist is currently 39 inches. I started out at 41, so there's improvement, but here's the guidelines I found for waist circumference.
Women:
Ideal = 28-33
Overweight = 33-37
Obese = over 37
I don't think I have any male readers, but add 3 inches to everything and you've got the male guidelines.
Okay, that's enough numbers for today. I'm so grateful for the progress I've made so far. And my motivation is still high.
Monday, February 8, 2010
All's well
I don't have much to say. Just checking in.
Everything is still going good. I don't have as much energy as I had that first week. The initial burst I got from new exercise and eating right has faded. I still have the energy to function, but I have to do things in moderation.
I trust that over time, this will improve. This is a journey, after all. One that's slower than I'd like, but that's the way it is. I normally lose a pound a week through clean eating and exercise. I'll try to be patient and accept that.
Everything is still going good. I don't have as much energy as I had that first week. The initial burst I got from new exercise and eating right has faded. I still have the energy to function, but I have to do things in moderation.
I trust that over time, this will improve. This is a journey, after all. One that's slower than I'd like, but that's the way it is. I normally lose a pound a week through clean eating and exercise. I'll try to be patient and accept that.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Stomach
Clarity's blog about her flat stomach got me wondering if I'll ever have one. She had a tummy tuck to assist with hers. (It was a tuck, wasn't it? I caught up with months of your blog mostly in one day.) Completely justified with the apron she had from a c-section and other factors.
I didn't have a flat stomach even at my lowest weight, when my BMI was below 21. I don't think a tummy tuck will ever be justified for me. I don't have an apron, just a rounded belly. It maybe looked slightly deflated after the rapid loss of HCG, but I could see that the skin would have tightened if I'd stayed at that weight. Besides, my finances would never allow for that type of surgery.
The confident part of me says yes, I will have a flat stomach. It didn't happen before because I lost so quickly, and I didn't lose all the fat I needed to. I intend to work hard at exercise. I won't take it for granted any time soon. Not after hardly being able to move for so many months. I'm running on the elliptical 3 days a week and doing resistance training 3 days a week.
At my current level of determination, if hard work can get me there, I'll get there.
I didn't have a flat stomach even at my lowest weight, when my BMI was below 21. I don't think a tummy tuck will ever be justified for me. I don't have an apron, just a rounded belly. It maybe looked slightly deflated after the rapid loss of HCG, but I could see that the skin would have tightened if I'd stayed at that weight. Besides, my finances would never allow for that type of surgery.
The confident part of me says yes, I will have a flat stomach. It didn't happen before because I lost so quickly, and I didn't lose all the fat I needed to. I intend to work hard at exercise. I won't take it for granted any time soon. Not after hardly being able to move for so many months. I'm running on the elliptical 3 days a week and doing resistance training 3 days a week.
At my current level of determination, if hard work can get me there, I'll get there.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Misplaced Sympathy: A light-hearted rant
My eating is still good. My mom sent some banana bread home with me, for my husband. It's not even tempting to me.
But why is it when I start a strict diet--when I find out I'm sensitive to almost every food on the planet--everyone feels sorry for my husband? "Oh, poor man. If you can't have carbs, what's he going to do?"
Hmmm let's see. What does he do?
1. He eats cereal with a banana for breakfast.
2. He has a sandwich for lunch. (I've offered to cook for him at lunch, since I'm cooking for myself and he comes home for lunch. He doesn't want it. He wants a sandwich.)
3. When I cook a roast in the crockpot, I put in potatoes for him.
He's not being deprived of carbs. As far as getting sugar out of the house? Under normal circumstances, I miss it far more than he does. He eats it if it's there, but doesn't miss it when it's gone.
Now, this is nothing against my husband. He's very supportive of the way I'm eating now. He's baffled by the sympathy he gets from both his family and mine. At least this time when my mom sent the goodies along with us, I have no desire for them.
My parents and I get along great. This summer with them was wonderful in most ways. Sitting down to every meal with my parents, spending as much time as I wanted with them, and helping out when I was needed, was great. I miss that. They live only 5 miles away, but I don't get there very much in the winter. Holidays and birthdays.
Anyway, just saying that my mom means well when she sends goodies with us. I think they all worry about my husband because he's skinny. Really rail thin. We make an odd couple right now. So they're all afraid I'll make him eat like I eat and he'll get even skinnier. I hardly think that's possible. No matter what he eats, or how much, he stays the same.
Okay, that was all over the place. My point is this: Is it too much to ask for a little sympathy for ME? The girl who can't eat anything but meat and veggies for who knows how long? :o)
(And who hasn't felt this good in 8 months, but we don't need to tell them that. Let's just stick with the sympathy.)
But why is it when I start a strict diet--when I find out I'm sensitive to almost every food on the planet--everyone feels sorry for my husband? "Oh, poor man. If you can't have carbs, what's he going to do?"
Hmmm let's see. What does he do?
1. He eats cereal with a banana for breakfast.
2. He has a sandwich for lunch. (I've offered to cook for him at lunch, since I'm cooking for myself and he comes home for lunch. He doesn't want it. He wants a sandwich.)
3. When I cook a roast in the crockpot, I put in potatoes for him.
He's not being deprived of carbs. As far as getting sugar out of the house? Under normal circumstances, I miss it far more than he does. He eats it if it's there, but doesn't miss it when it's gone.
Now, this is nothing against my husband. He's very supportive of the way I'm eating now. He's baffled by the sympathy he gets from both his family and mine. At least this time when my mom sent the goodies along with us, I have no desire for them.
My parents and I get along great. This summer with them was wonderful in most ways. Sitting down to every meal with my parents, spending as much time as I wanted with them, and helping out when I was needed, was great. I miss that. They live only 5 miles away, but I don't get there very much in the winter. Holidays and birthdays.
Anyway, just saying that my mom means well when she sends goodies with us. I think they all worry about my husband because he's skinny. Really rail thin. We make an odd couple right now. So they're all afraid I'll make him eat like I eat and he'll get even skinnier. I hardly think that's possible. No matter what he eats, or how much, he stays the same.
Okay, that was all over the place. My point is this: Is it too much to ask for a little sympathy for ME? The girl who can't eat anything but meat and veggies for who knows how long? :o)
(And who hasn't felt this good in 8 months, but we don't need to tell them that. Let's just stick with the sympathy.)
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Progress is progress
I lost 1.4 pounds this week. I lost half an inch from my waist and 1/4 inch from my hips. The rest of my measurements stayed the same. That's not bad for doing it all with diet and exercise. I was hoping for another 2 pound loss like I've had the last three weeks, but this is close.
I have a long way to go, but progress is progress.
I have a long way to go, but progress is progress.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Not much to say
No daily weigh-ins means I'm left with not much to say. Tomorrow is the day I weigh myself. I'm dying of curiosity. My eating and exercise has been so good.
Oh, my old friend the detox rash is back. Came back Thursday, I think it was. It only comes when my eating is clean. I'm trying to look at it as a positive sign, but egads it itches! Detoxifying with the MMS drops alone didn't give me this rash--the toxins are dumped out quickly through the liver and stomach. Clean eating (and probably fat loss) releases them more slowly. Through the skin, apparently.
I'm hoping now that I'm back on the drops, this rash will go away. It's not widespread yet, and I'd like it to stay that way. Then leave.
These drops are supposed to get rid of mold, candida, parasites, viruses--whatever doesn't belong in a healthy bloodstream. It violently attacks and kills them. And I know there's at least a lot of mold and candida in me to kill. Thus my body's strong reactions. I just took a dose and I'm feeling sort of lightheaded.
I can't wait to see what the scale says tomorrow. But even if the number isn't what I hope, I want to focus on my improving health.
Oh, my old friend the detox rash is back. Came back Thursday, I think it was. It only comes when my eating is clean. I'm trying to look at it as a positive sign, but egads it itches! Detoxifying with the MMS drops alone didn't give me this rash--the toxins are dumped out quickly through the liver and stomach. Clean eating (and probably fat loss) releases them more slowly. Through the skin, apparently.
I'm hoping now that I'm back on the drops, this rash will go away. It's not widespread yet, and I'd like it to stay that way. Then leave.
These drops are supposed to get rid of mold, candida, parasites, viruses--whatever doesn't belong in a healthy bloodstream. It violently attacks and kills them. And I know there's at least a lot of mold and candida in me to kill. Thus my body's strong reactions. I just took a dose and I'm feeling sort of lightheaded.
I can't wait to see what the scale says tomorrow. But even if the number isn't what I hope, I want to focus on my improving health.
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