Christmas events carried on too long. My mom's an excellent baker. I wasn't weighing myself. Any more excuses? In any case, I gained more than I wanted to let myself gain.
I'm eating clean today and part of tomorrow. But isn't there always something? My dad goes in for an early morning surgery Friday. It's out of town, so my sister and I are going along to be with my mom--staying overnight Thurs.
Now, where can I eat out for 3 meals where I can avoid sugar, wheat and dairy? Those are the 3 things that pile the weight on me. I feel lousy, so I'm more than ready to eat better. I hate this delay, but I need to be there for my family--this is a serious surgery.
I'll do the best I can with food choices, and drink tons of water. I never thought I'd feel this way, but I can't wait to get back on Phase 2! Goal date remains Jan 24.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Merry Christmas!
As I said, holidays aren't good for me--food-wise--and no holiday lasts longer than Christmas. It started the day of my last post. A very busy day. For supper I ate some of the chicken noodle soup I'd intended for my husband. I simply didn't have time to cook anything and that wasn't a substantial meal. I went to a Christmas party that night. I was hungry and there was chocolate. Enough said.
It's the time of year when people give little plates of goodies, too. My will-power has to be strong to resist something that's in my own house. And I love Christmas-time, so I don't want to stress about it. Bottom line: I'm not letting things get out of hand, but I'm enjoying a few sweet treats. My weight's back up by a couple of pounds.
After Christmas, I'm back on the wagon. Which day, I can't say. Knowing my mom, she'll send some of the "extra" Christmas cookies home with me--for my husband, of course. Yeah, right. I've been eating dairy again, but I see it as a chance to say goodbye to dairy. My husband doesn't understand the need for a farewell for a food group. Can't I just quit? (Can you tell he's never had the slightest issue with food?)
When I'm back in a cheat-free zone, I'll start an informal detoxifying program to get ready for round 2. I don't want a repeat of the detox rash that plagued me my last phase 2. My plan includes a super green foods powder that detoxifies, dry skin brushing, and infrared saunas. I'm not going strict with my diet, but I'll be getting dairy and sugar out of my system.
I'll check in when I start that.
Meanwhile, have a Merry Christmas!
It's the time of year when people give little plates of goodies, too. My will-power has to be strong to resist something that's in my own house. And I love Christmas-time, so I don't want to stress about it. Bottom line: I'm not letting things get out of hand, but I'm enjoying a few sweet treats. My weight's back up by a couple of pounds.
After Christmas, I'm back on the wagon. Which day, I can't say. Knowing my mom, she'll send some of the "extra" Christmas cookies home with me--for my husband, of course. Yeah, right. I've been eating dairy again, but I see it as a chance to say goodbye to dairy. My husband doesn't understand the need for a farewell for a food group. Can't I just quit? (Can you tell he's never had the slightest issue with food?)
When I'm back in a cheat-free zone, I'll start an informal detoxifying program to get ready for round 2. I don't want a repeat of the detox rash that plagued me my last phase 2. My plan includes a super green foods powder that detoxifies, dry skin brushing, and infrared saunas. I'm not going strict with my diet, but I'll be getting dairy and sugar out of my system.
I'll check in when I start that.
Meanwhile, have a Merry Christmas!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Doing good
overnight: -0.6
weight: 139.2
That's a loss of someone with a food sensitivity. It's got to be dairy, which makes me profoundly sad. I love ice cream and pudding, and those are things I can make sugar free. That's why I've been trying to deny to myself that it's dairy. Although a couple of weeks ago I made chocolate ice cream out of coconut milk that was pretty good.
I'd been eating eggs all along (except on HCG) without trouble. But I hadn't had pasteurized dairy for a few years--other than the occasional cheese or sour cream on a taco salad. A bit of butter. Nothing near a daily basis.
We used to get milk from a local farmer--raw milk. I had no trouble with that. And when the farmer gave up dairy cows, I quit drinking milk. Raw is so much healthier. But coming off of HCG I really craved fat in my diet, so I had lots of cream and cheese. And the itchiness started soon after.
weight: 139.2
That's a loss of someone with a food sensitivity. It's got to be dairy, which makes me profoundly sad. I love ice cream and pudding, and those are things I can make sugar free. That's why I've been trying to deny to myself that it's dairy. Although a couple of weeks ago I made chocolate ice cream out of coconut milk that was pretty good.
I'd been eating eggs all along (except on HCG) without trouble. But I hadn't had pasteurized dairy for a few years--other than the occasional cheese or sour cream on a taco salad. A bit of butter. Nothing near a daily basis.
We used to get milk from a local farmer--raw milk. I had no trouble with that. And when the farmer gave up dairy cows, I quit drinking milk. Raw is so much healthier. But coming off of HCG I really craved fat in my diet, so I had lots of cream and cheese. And the itchiness started soon after.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Success
Best steak day ever!
overnight: -2.8
current weight 139.8
I drank 3 quarts of water yesterday and that's most likely why I lost so much. Such a rapid gain can only be water and this helped me lose it. Yes, I'm still 7 pounds above my LDW, but I'm making progress. All I care about right now is progress.
I took my measurements again today and most of them are smaller than they were last week. They still aren't what they were at my last dose, but the funny thing is that my fat% measured with calipers is lower than it was at my last dose. I went from 25.1% to 24.3%. That makes me feel better about being 7 pounds over.
overnight: -2.8
current weight 139.8
I drank 3 quarts of water yesterday and that's most likely why I lost so much. Such a rapid gain can only be water and this helped me lose it. Yes, I'm still 7 pounds above my LDW, but I'm making progress. All I care about right now is progress.
I took my measurements again today and most of them are smaller than they were last week. They still aren't what they were at my last dose, but the funny thing is that my fat% measured with calipers is lower than it was at my last dose. I went from 25.1% to 24.3%. That makes me feel better about being 7 pounds over.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Steak. It's what's for dinner.
I gained a little after the Christmas banquet. Then yesterday we went out for Chinese--loaded with MSG and sugar, I'm sure. Plus I only drank 1 quart of water yesterday. So my steak day will probably only make up for that gain. I'll eat carefully for the next two days, then do another steak day Thursday. I'll see after that.
My timing for starting the first round of HCG wasn't good. I didn't have anything going on during phase 2, which was nice. But Thanksgiving came one week into P3, and the birthday dinner and church banquet only a couple of days into P4. I ate many foods I wouldn't have introduced until much later. But like you guys keep saying, I'll be fine.
I won't start round 2 as early as I hoped. I thought I had family coming to visit toward the end of February, but they're coming somewhere around Jan 16 and staying (but not at my house) for nearly a week. My mother-in-law likes to wait until the whole family is together to celebrate Christmas, so one of our get-togethers will include a late Christmas. And I'll be with them for several meals during their stay, so I don't think I want to be on phase 2 at that time.
My in-laws are thrilled that I lost weight, but I didn't tell them about HCG and I don't plan to. So I don't want them to witness it firsthand. They already think I'm a little crazy. (Wheat bad? How can whole wheat be bad?) The best thing is to wait until the visit is over before I start again.
And this will give me more time to stabilize my weight and work on getting some muscle back. My new target date for starting is Jan 24, but it's too early to know if that date will work.
My timing for starting the first round of HCG wasn't good. I didn't have anything going on during phase 2, which was nice. But Thanksgiving came one week into P3, and the birthday dinner and church banquet only a couple of days into P4. I ate many foods I wouldn't have introduced until much later. But like you guys keep saying, I'll be fine.
I won't start round 2 as early as I hoped. I thought I had family coming to visit toward the end of February, but they're coming somewhere around Jan 16 and staying (but not at my house) for nearly a week. My mother-in-law likes to wait until the whole family is together to celebrate Christmas, so one of our get-togethers will include a late Christmas. And I'll be with them for several meals during their stay, so I don't think I want to be on phase 2 at that time.
My in-laws are thrilled that I lost weight, but I didn't tell them about HCG and I don't plan to. So I don't want them to witness it firsthand. They already think I'm a little crazy. (Wheat bad? How can whole wheat be bad?) The best thing is to wait until the visit is over before I start again.
And this will give me more time to stabilize my weight and work on getting some muscle back. My new target date for starting is Jan 24, but it's too early to know if that date will work.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
One event down...
My weight stayed exactly the same, and I'm not sure how that happened. I ate lots of new foods last night--wild rice, wheat flour and sugar. I could have turned down dessert, but I didn't want to. I expected to be up 2 pounds today, but no. Maybe I'm finally stabilizing.
Regardless, I'm going to be careful when I can. Starting Monday, I might follow Beb's example and alternate steak days to get my weight back down. We got our beef from the local farmer. Lots of good steaks included--sirloin, ribeye. Mmmm. I haven't had steak in so long. Doing a couple of genuine steak days won't be a hardship.
Regardless, I'm going to be careful when I can. Starting Monday, I might follow Beb's example and alternate steak days to get my weight back down. We got our beef from the local farmer. Lots of good steaks included--sirloin, ribeye. Mmmm. I haven't had steak in so long. Doing a couple of genuine steak days won't be a hardship.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Not bad
overnight: -0.2
A small move, but still a move in the right direction. I'm almost back in the 130s again. I'd be happy to get down to 135 before I start the next round of HCG. I've got about 4 weeks to lose those 5 pounds. Then I'll aim for losing another 10 pounds during my short round because I think my ideal is about 125.
Looking at my numbers, I didn't gain nearly as much fat as I gained lean body mass. I did gain some fat, though, which I hope I can reverse.
I also hope my mother-in-law serves the right kind of food tonight. And I nearly forgot that tomorrow night is the Christmas banquet at church. It's frustrating trying to lose weight when I don't have control over the food I'm served. On the other hand, these two events will be fun, so I just need to relax and enjoy them without worrying about what I eat.
A small move, but still a move in the right direction. I'm almost back in the 130s again. I'd be happy to get down to 135 before I start the next round of HCG. I've got about 4 weeks to lose those 5 pounds. Then I'll aim for losing another 10 pounds during my short round because I think my ideal is about 125.
Looking at my numbers, I didn't gain nearly as much fat as I gained lean body mass. I did gain some fat, though, which I hope I can reverse.
I also hope my mother-in-law serves the right kind of food tonight. And I nearly forgot that tomorrow night is the Christmas banquet at church. It's frustrating trying to lose weight when I don't have control over the food I'm served. On the other hand, these two events will be fun, so I just need to relax and enjoy them without worrying about what I eat.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Heading the right way
overnight: -0.8
I successfully avoided eggs and dairy yesterday. I misspoke when I said I'd eat only meat, veggies and fruit. I snacked on raw almonds and coconut oil. I do want to avoid peanuts and peanut butter for a while. But I'm sure I don't have a problem with raw almonds--and the scale proved it.
That's the first time the scale has gone down without a steak day. I could do another steak day soon, just to try to jump the weight down further. But it wouldn't work out to do one until Monday, and I'm not sure how much good it would do at this point. It's worth a try, though.
I'll keep up what I did yesterday, and I'm confident the scale will continue to move in the right direction. Today is officially Day 1 of Phase 4, but that doesn't mean much to me at this point.
I successfully avoided eggs and dairy yesterday. I misspoke when I said I'd eat only meat, veggies and fruit. I snacked on raw almonds and coconut oil. I do want to avoid peanuts and peanut butter for a while. But I'm sure I don't have a problem with raw almonds--and the scale proved it.
That's the first time the scale has gone down without a steak day. I could do another steak day soon, just to try to jump the weight down further. But it wouldn't work out to do one until Monday, and I'm not sure how much good it would do at this point. It's worth a try, though.
I'll keep up what I did yesterday, and I'm confident the scale will continue to move in the right direction. Today is officially Day 1 of Phase 4, but that doesn't mean much to me at this point.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Last day of P3
I didn't mean to hide away like this. I started this blog for accountability, so not posting when things went wrong seems like cheating. But this time of year is so busy, and I've been so frustrated.
I'm afraid I've completely blown phase 3. I didn't cheat exactly, I just didn't figure out the problem. Steak days would get me down just over a pound, then I'd gain the weight back in two days. Or even one day. Didn't seem worth doing any more, so I quit the steak days. I gained much quicker than I lost on this protocol. Nearly a pound a day.
I think my P2 was too long for my sanity, since I had such a rough one. By the time I got to P3, I wasn't in any condition to do it properly. I couldn't make myself cut back to meat and veggies like I said I should. Mentally, I couldn't handle more restrictions. Cutting starch and sugar, no problem. But I needed my eggs and cheese and cream.
So, have I ruined my whole HCG protocol by doing such a poor job with P3? It seems like such a vital stage.
I'm allergic to something I'm eating. A new form of itchiness has beset me. No rash, but my face, neck and shoulders started itching a few days into P3. I'm sure that's the cause of most of my gain.
This morning was the wake-up call. I've gained exactly 10 pounds during P3, which takes me 8.4 above my LDW. I can't bring myself to post my weight, but you can figure it out. OUCH!! I gained half an inch on some measurements. One inch on a couple.
I think I'm over my food obsession. My birthday was last week, so one family get-together is over with. One to go. The in-laws are having us over for supper Friday night. Okay, so other than what I can't control Friday, no excuses. I'll eat meat, veggies and fruit. Only after my itchy symptoms go away will I re-introduce one food at a time to see what's doing this. Starch and sugar? I don't need it, and I won't have any until my weight is under control.
I like the new wardrobe I bought last week, and I want to keep it! I will NOT let this be a failure!
Call me crazy after the phase 2 I had, but this morning I ordered more HCG. I'm doing a round 2, but it will be a short round--23 dose days. Even if I lose what I gained in P3 I'll still have fat to lose. And if I blew phase 3, I need to make sure I have a good phase 3 and 4 to be sure my hypothalamus resets.
Now I wish I had ordered it sooner, but I was so sure I was done with HCG. If it arrives on time, I could start January 2. But I'll start as soon as it arrives, depending on my cycle.
Thanks, everyone, for how supportive you've been through this. I'll try to get back to posting every day, or most days anyway.
I'm afraid I've completely blown phase 3. I didn't cheat exactly, I just didn't figure out the problem. Steak days would get me down just over a pound, then I'd gain the weight back in two days. Or even one day. Didn't seem worth doing any more, so I quit the steak days. I gained much quicker than I lost on this protocol. Nearly a pound a day.
I think my P2 was too long for my sanity, since I had such a rough one. By the time I got to P3, I wasn't in any condition to do it properly. I couldn't make myself cut back to meat and veggies like I said I should. Mentally, I couldn't handle more restrictions. Cutting starch and sugar, no problem. But I needed my eggs and cheese and cream.
So, have I ruined my whole HCG protocol by doing such a poor job with P3? It seems like such a vital stage.
I'm allergic to something I'm eating. A new form of itchiness has beset me. No rash, but my face, neck and shoulders started itching a few days into P3. I'm sure that's the cause of most of my gain.
This morning was the wake-up call. I've gained exactly 10 pounds during P3, which takes me 8.4 above my LDW. I can't bring myself to post my weight, but you can figure it out. OUCH!! I gained half an inch on some measurements. One inch on a couple.
I think I'm over my food obsession. My birthday was last week, so one family get-together is over with. One to go. The in-laws are having us over for supper Friday night. Okay, so other than what I can't control Friday, no excuses. I'll eat meat, veggies and fruit. Only after my itchy symptoms go away will I re-introduce one food at a time to see what's doing this. Starch and sugar? I don't need it, and I won't have any until my weight is under control.
I like the new wardrobe I bought last week, and I want to keep it! I will NOT let this be a failure!
Call me crazy after the phase 2 I had, but this morning I ordered more HCG. I'm doing a round 2, but it will be a short round--23 dose days. Even if I lose what I gained in P3 I'll still have fat to lose. And if I blew phase 3, I need to make sure I have a good phase 3 and 4 to be sure my hypothalamus resets.
Now I wish I had ordered it sooner, but I was so sure I was done with HCG. If it arrives on time, I could start January 2. But I'll start as soon as it arrives, depending on my cycle.
Thanks, everyone, for how supportive you've been through this. I'll try to get back to posting every day, or most days anyway.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Holidays aren't good for me
I ate too much on Thanksgiving, surprise, surprise. I didn't intend to get so stuffed. In the middle of my piece of sugar-free, starch-free pumpkin pie, I realized I was way too full. But I finished the slice.
And here's the thing. I'm used to eating bread and potatoes and corn on Thanksgiving. Foods that I get full on, but burn through pretty quickly. Instead I made oopsie roll stuffing, mashed fo-tatoes (cauliflower), green bean casserole with all P3 friendly ingredients, and pumpkin pie made with xylitol and an almond flour crust.
Not only did I get stuffed sooner, but it stuck with me. I took an amount of food that wasn't excessive, spent the meal talking with family, and ended up more full than I have at Thanksgiving for several years. And I paid for it. Here's my numbers:
P3, Day 7 (Thanksgiving morning)
weight: 134.8
overnight change: +0.2 (despite careful eating Wednesday)
P3, Day 8
weight: 137.6
overnight change: +2.8
But my Thanksgiving wasn't over. I worked a long time making all those foods. There were leftovers to eat. Steak day? No way! So...
P3, Day 9
weight: 138
overnight change: +0.4
Kicking myself. Stupid, stupid. There's a reason steak days come the day of the gain. I know the rules. So I did a steak day the day after I should have. Okay results...
P3, Day 10
weight: 136.2
overnight change: -1.8
But still 3.4 pounds above LDW. I couldn't do two steak days in a row--I'd have been way too hungry. But I ate very cleanly. Eggs, meat, vegetables, fruit. Oh, and since I suspect dairy, I made ice cream out of coconut milk. I expected a loss this morning, or at least to stay the same. But here are my latest results.
P3, Day 11
last dose weight: 132.8
current weight: 136.8 (4.0 above)
overnight change: +0.6
I can't win. I don't know what to do. What food do I eliminate next? Eggs? Maybe the trouble was the coconut milk. I truly am going to be back to phase 2 foods soon. Only a wider array of meats and vegetables, and I'll be able to eat my fill of them. True, I hurt myself by not doing an immediate steak day, and it may take longer to come off. But another gain? Come on!
I'm almost ready to give up and chuck the whole thing. But I worked so hard through phase 2. I don't want to gain this weight back. I'll do another steak day soon, but I can't handle another one yet. I need to eat throughout the day. My two steak days haven't been bad, but they would be if they come too close together. I haven't had breakfast yet, but I'm very hungry.
Okay. No eggs today. But for supper I'm making a Thai curry with coconut milk. I've avoided dairy for so many meals, I'm out of non-milk things to make. Other than that, I'll eat only meat, vegetables and fruit. Mostly raw vegetables. I'll see what that does. Oh, and lots of water.
And here's the thing. I'm used to eating bread and potatoes and corn on Thanksgiving. Foods that I get full on, but burn through pretty quickly. Instead I made oopsie roll stuffing, mashed fo-tatoes (cauliflower), green bean casserole with all P3 friendly ingredients, and pumpkin pie made with xylitol and an almond flour crust.
Not only did I get stuffed sooner, but it stuck with me. I took an amount of food that wasn't excessive, spent the meal talking with family, and ended up more full than I have at Thanksgiving for several years. And I paid for it. Here's my numbers:
P3, Day 7 (Thanksgiving morning)
weight: 134.8
overnight change: +0.2 (despite careful eating Wednesday)
P3, Day 8
weight: 137.6
overnight change: +2.8
But my Thanksgiving wasn't over. I worked a long time making all those foods. There were leftovers to eat. Steak day? No way! So...
P3, Day 9
weight: 138
overnight change: +0.4
Kicking myself. Stupid, stupid. There's a reason steak days come the day of the gain. I know the rules. So I did a steak day the day after I should have. Okay results...
P3, Day 10
weight: 136.2
overnight change: -1.8
But still 3.4 pounds above LDW. I couldn't do two steak days in a row--I'd have been way too hungry. But I ate very cleanly. Eggs, meat, vegetables, fruit. Oh, and since I suspect dairy, I made ice cream out of coconut milk. I expected a loss this morning, or at least to stay the same. But here are my latest results.
P3, Day 11
last dose weight: 132.8
current weight: 136.8 (4.0 above)
overnight change: +0.6
I can't win. I don't know what to do. What food do I eliminate next? Eggs? Maybe the trouble was the coconut milk. I truly am going to be back to phase 2 foods soon. Only a wider array of meats and vegetables, and I'll be able to eat my fill of them. True, I hurt myself by not doing an immediate steak day, and it may take longer to come off. But another gain? Come on!
I'm almost ready to give up and chuck the whole thing. But I worked so hard through phase 2. I don't want to gain this weight back. I'll do another steak day soon, but I can't handle another one yet. I need to eat throughout the day. My two steak days haven't been bad, but they would be if they come too close together. I haven't had breakfast yet, but I'm very hungry.
Okay. No eggs today. But for supper I'm making a Thai curry with coconut milk. I've avoided dairy for so many meals, I'm out of non-milk things to make. Other than that, I'll eat only meat, vegetables and fruit. Mostly raw vegetables. I'll see what that does. Oh, and lots of water.
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